20 February 2007

Zzzz........ mommyhood had taken over

It's been a long long time since I last wrote.... My daughter, Kriti, was born on 20th June 2006 after i tossed and turned and twirled and crushed Aseem's hand for over 15 hours. Phew... that was some time..... the drip did not work so the doc gave some pills... which dialated the cervix...and the pain came continuously..non stop..till I was begging the doctors to let me out of the pain. For all of you who are being brainwashed by the natural childbirth supporters against epidural..... take my word for it.. TAKE IT! Childbirth is memorable enough without you having to subject yourself to the full pain...after all, even epidural is administered only after you are 3cm dialated, and by then you are already in hell.

Consider this, the same me who was screaming and shouting till minutes before the magic needle was inserted near my backbone at 4 in the morning, was apologizing for my 'bad' behaviour to the nursing staff in the OT and discussing the life and times of 'Epidural' with the anesthesiologist moments later. That's not all, during the delivery, which lasted all of 20 minutes, I was telling my doc why I sooooo want a baby girl! Viola, Kriti was born and the doc put her on my tummy.... I noticed that she had passed black sticky potty. Mind you, the process of childbirth is as stressful for the child as it is for the mother. But that is okay, considering it is the beginning of a time when mommy and baby will become integral parts of each other's eco-systems.

Now when I look at Kriti it is difficult to believe that she was once in my womb... inside me. I don't seem to remember a life without her. And the pain of childbirth or the problems of pregnancy, they all fade away when you see your larger than life reflection in your baby's twinkling eyes. She looks at me as if I am the center of her universe, I am her becon and she wants no other. Each day since her birth has been more beautiful than the last. Having a baby has made me experience so many different textures of my personality that I never knew existed.